Five days after giving birth to my daughter I am still struggling to express my thoughts and feelings about new mommahood.
My uncharacteristic loss of words was initially caused by the morphine hangover that followed my epidural. Today, I am still processing new emotions and routines, and the new person who looks at me with the biggest blue eyes I have ever seen.
And yes, I am already longing for a nap.
Throughout my pregnancy I heard that parenthood would change my life, but I wasn’t truly able to process how radical the change would be until yesterday morning when I started this new week as Mom for the first time.
The obvious changes – the baby accessories that have taken over my condo – are not overwhelming. It’s the emotional changes that continue to take me for a ride. At this point, I could make use of a book on Zen parenthood or perhaps the Tao of parenting.
In the meantime, I’ll just be happy if my hormones finally level out and I can get the hang of breast feeding – both are a lot harder to manage than they are cracked up to be.
Sophia Justice Perry
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